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Tell Of His Power

My Journey towards Forgiveness

I have learned that forgiveness is not something I need to manufacture for myself. Rather, I need to receive it directly from God as a free gift.

By Vanesa Esteche

Like too many young people these days, I grew up neglected in a dysfunctional and abusive home. I hated my father as I watched him abusing others and received his abuse myself. I hated him so much that before I reached my teen years, I wished him dead and vowed to make that happen. 

Needless to say, growing up in this environment left me with deep-rooted negative beliefs about myself. I’m not important, I’m not wanted, I’m alone, were thoughts that subconsciously governed my self-image. By the time I reached my twenties, I was convinced that I needed to live behind a mask. I felt sure that I could never let anyone know who I truly was because they would automatically reject me. 

I also needed to numb the pain of being me. I turned to parties, books, movies, food, pornography, alcohol, and relationships to

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About the author

Vanesa Esteche volunteers at an international online prayer ministry that helps people know Jesus more deeply. When she’s not working, she loves going on adventures. The Bible principles that helped her towards her healing are summarized in the book, The Hidden Half of the Gospel, by Paul Coneff and Lindsey Gindke. Available at